Time passes faster than it seems it can! The past months have flown for us as we have tried to be available for Roy’s sister Barbara to assist her with medical issues and lack of mobility. Toward that end, we knew we had to make some alterations both inside and outside our home. At first we had big ideas about adding on a whole apartment for her, but ended up scaling that back to the minimum needed in order for her to come live with us.
We turned two bedrooms into one large room so that she had a bedroom, sitting area, computer area, and craft work area all in one room. A walk-in shower had to replace the bath tub. An outdoor ramp and larger driveway made getting in and out of the house easy for her using either a wheel chair or her mobility scooter.
Just as we began moving forward with these changes, I awoke one morning with numbish tingling feet. The strange sensation progressed over the next week up my legs and lower torso almost to my waist. In an effort to maintain my balance on these strange feeling feet, I began to walk with an unsteady gait and soon took to using a cane.
I began to wonder just what was up? This isn’t a good time for this to happen, God! I mean, we are needing to help Barb! This time isn’t about me, it’s about what she needs! Even as such thoughts rattled around in my head, I was not alarmed or too concerned. I was able calmly, if somewhat slower, to go about the things that needed to be done. Over the 59 years since I became a christian, I have slowly learned that my best laid plans are pretty much different from the Lord’s perfect plans! “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways, saith the Lord”. (Isaiah 55:8) His ways of doing things are very high above mine, and I take Him at His word with confidence.
So it came to pass that over the Thanksgiving week a year ago, Roy and our son Vernon moved Barb and part of her things from Phoenix into our home. It was a huge adjustment for us all, but especially for her as she had to let go of her home place, most of her belongings and the last bits of her independence.
The best thing about that last month of 2013 for us all, was that Barb was with us here for Christmas. With us and with our children and grand children! She spent hours pouring over mail order catalog to order gifts for everyone. I like to think it helped ease her transition into our family and into her new circumstances.
Barbara passed away in September, which I will tell you more about later. Meanwhile, some people have so much to give to others and Barb was one of those people. The abilities of all kinds that the Lord God heaped upon her have blessed so many. I would like to share more about her with you and will start tonight with one of her many writings:
HE SHALL LEAD
I do not know what mysteries lie in my future way;
I cannot plan for any step beyond that of today.
The past has given many days of dark uncertainty,
But always through them, into light, my Lord has guided me.
I see no reason why today should cause me any fear
Although the way ahead of me is far from being clear.
I do not need to figure out my plan of life, nor try
To steer my course by my own thought, my will to satisfy.
I rest secure in God’s great love, His purpose for today.
I do not plan for any steps, for HE shall lead the way.
— By Barbara K. Smith